Would You Trade That Heart Of Gold For A Minute In My Skin?

OHMYGODDDD. I HAVEN' UPDATED THIS IN, LIKE, FOREVERRRRR. I FEEL SO BAD. Enjoy it, if you can. xD

I've got a house in the back of my head
But I can't find a permanent resident
'Cause the market's down
And the area's not so good these days
I've got a watch but I don't have time
I've got a road and it leads to decadence
But a dead end sign waits down the line
I leave my footprints for the evidence

Poison: All Time Low

          *Jasey POV*

I wanted to stay behind when All Time Low hit the other side of the world, but I didn't think, no, I knew they wouldn't let me join Paramore on their No Doubt tour. I wanted to go to LA more than anything to see our little girl, bring her home. Stupid world fame. I chuckled as Jack snored loudly from the chairs opposite me. I kicked him and he jolted up, and then fell onto the lino floor. "OW! What the hell Jasey!?" He yelled. I laughed and offered my hand to him. I pulled him up and he sat back down.

"I'm so tired." He complained. I smiled and pushed my sunglasses back up my nose. "Hey, you've got some weeks off now. Catch up on sleep." I offered as I saw Alex come back with coffee. I smiled and took my cup from him. "Thanks babe." I whispered, blowing over it. "It's alright. Think of it as an apology for dragging you across the world for the past few weeks." I smiled and leant my head on his shoulder. "What did you think of Japan and 'down under'?" Zack asked, imitating a horrible Australian accent.

I chuckled and sipped my coffee. "I adored it. I love Japan, and Aus is just beautiful. I can't wait to get home though." I answered, looking up at Alex. He pecked my lips and gripped my hand. The rest of the guy's were off on a plane to Baltimore, while me and Alex were getting a plane to LA. We were officially going to start our search for Holly.

"I wonder what it's gonna be like..." Jack thought aloud. "What's what gonna be like?" Alex asked, taking a sip of his coffee. "Touring with little girl. I mean, will he actually grow up?" He asked, pointing to Alex. I smiled. "This boy will never grow up Jack. You know that." I stated, tapping his knee. Alex chuckled. "Just don't swear near her." He whispered, squeezing my knee. "Dude this coffee is shit." He gagged putting by Zack's sleeping feet.

We all giggled sleepily as I leant my head on Alex's shoulder. I shut my eyes and snuggled deeper into his collarbone. "I hate early morning flights." I sighed, re-opening my eyes. "You've got nothing to complain about missy."  Rian complained, kicking my shin lightly. "You have a layover." I sat up and smiled sweetly, until I kicked Rian hard in the shin. "OW!" He yelled, grabbing his leg. That scream caused Zack to jump up and kick the coffee over in the process.

"What the hell is going on!?" He yelled. I jumped up as the coffee landed on my feet. "For fucks sake Zack!" I screamed, slapping the side of his head. "What was that for?!" He shouted at me, holding the side of his head. "Hot coffee on white converse. You do the fucking math Merrick." I looked down at my shoes, sighing. That was until someone grabbed my waist and pulled down. I was sat on Zack's lap. "Zack let me go." I warned, looking at Alex. He winked as I fell back so I was lying across Zack. Then he started tickling me.

I couldn't breathe from laughter and I was kicking the air until Alex sat on my feet. "Oh my god! Zack! Please! Stop!" I pleaded through hysteric laughter. I was close to tears before he stopped and Alex helped me up. "I hate you." I whispered, catching my breath. "I love you too Jasey." Zack replied, ruffling my hair. I sighed and sat back on my seat, now fully awake. "You guys are such assholes." I breathed out, pulling the sleeve of my hoodie back over my shoulders.

They sniggered and went back to their zombie-like state until Matt came by. "Sorry to say guys, but the Maryland flight's boarding." The guys stood up and hugged us goodbye. "Bring her back for us." Jack whispered in my ear. I nodded and kissed his cheek. I quickly blinked away the tears of goodbye before Alex looked back at me. He saw me trying to get rid of them and kissed my forehead. "It'll be alright. I promise."

*Alex POV*

            After a two hour wait, we boarded our plane to LA and quickly were on our way. The movies were in real short supply and the food wasn't exactly great but I wasn't really hungry anyways. Jasey didn't even open her headphones; she just sat there, looking deep in thought. "Babe? Are you alright?" I asked, shaking her shoulder. She looked at me and nodded. "I know you're nervous but it'll be okay." I reassured her. "What if we can't have her back Alex?" She asked nervously. I put my arm around her. "They can't stop us sweetheart. We'll plead our case, and I'm sure they'll understand." She nodded. "As long as I get to keep you." She whispered, putting her hands on my face. I quickly pecked her lips before letting her fall asleep on me.

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It was around 3 in the afternoon in LA when we landed; so I got our hire car and we drove straight to the address. It wasn't hard to find, and to be honest, it looked like an amazing home. It was a large house on the outside, and looked so out of place in the row of mansions. It reminded of the houses back in England. I pulled up outside and sighed. "You ready?" I asked Jasey, holding her hand. She nodded with a deep intake of breath. We got out of the car and walked up the path way to the front door.

Jasey stopped suddenly before we walked up the steps to the door. "I can't go in there Alex, I just can't do it." She choked out. I wrapped her up in a hug and kissed her forehead. "We can honey." I whispered, tucking her hair behind her ears. "Our little girl is there, and you're her mom. We can get through this." I reassured her, kissing the tip of her nose. She gulped and nodded. She gripped my hand was we got up the stairs and knocked on the door. Her hand was clammy and cold with sweat.

We waited for five minutes, with no answer. "No one's home." Jasey breathed, almost in relief. "We'll come back tomorrow then." I suggested, kissing her hand. "Momma! Who are those people on our steps?!" I stared at Jasey who was shaking before I turned to look at the little girl below me. She was perfect. Her brown hair was straight and down, almost reaching her shoulders. Her eyes were a dark brown, very similar to mine. She had Jasey's lips, perfect and slim. Her nose too. "Can I help you?" A woman asked carrying grocery's. Jasey looked at her, and stared suddenly. "Jasey?! Sweetie!" She squealed, hugging her. "Hey Olivia." She whispered, replying to her hug. "Laura, it's not polite to stare at Jasey." Olivia pointed out.

I stared at 'Laura' as she nodded. "Sorry." She said in her high-pitched voice. "Come in! Come in!" Olivia ordered, unlocking and opening the front door. "Who's she?" I hissed in Jasey's ear. "She was my dad's receptionist, a family friend." She answered, shaking. "Why is Holly with her?" Jasey shrugged as Olivia came back to the door. "Your dad's coming down today, he must have sent you to see us." My eyes widened, as did Jasey's as we walked inside.

SO SORRY FOR THE LACKAGE OF UPDATES. I started college and have been swamped. Here's an update to keep you going.

She's so scene, Hollywood dreams
Broken 'cause she's no good at anything
Run around and around, make up your mind
I bet you strike out with her tonight
She'll look at you and swear she's true
What will moving to California do?
I know for sure she's lost her way

That's What She Said: The Friday Night Boys 

*Alex POV*

They didn't tow my car. I had no fine to pay. I just had to leave. As I drove, I couldn't think straight. Everything was a blur in my eyes until the first tears fell off my face. I pulled over into a lay-by and sat there for a few moments before I started crying. I didn't care who saw me punch the steering wheel in frustration before leaning my head on it. I took deep breaths to try and calm myself down, but it wasn't working. I couldn't believe she has actually left. After everything I had told her, everything we had done, I never thought she'd leave.

I wiped away the last tears on my cheeks with the back of my hand and started up the engine again. I started driving home, gripping the steering wheel hard. I felt my cell vibrate is my pocket, so I pulled up into this gas station to answer it. "Hey Jack." I sighed, switching off the engine. "Alex, Grace ran off, I woke up and she was fucking gone!" My eyebrows furrowed. "What the hell man? Grace wasn't with you last night." I heard him whisper 'Shit' before turning back to me. "Alex, Grace was here last night and this morning I woke up and she was gone."

"Whoa. Why the fuck didn't you call me?!" I yelled. "Because we were sorta busy, if you catch my drift?" My eyes widened. "You were fucking her?!" I hissed at him. "Whoa, calm down Alex." I hung up and threw my phone on the passenger seat. I quickly started driving again and pulled up outside Jack's place. I grabbed my cell, which was vibrating again and stormed to the door. I knocked on it and Jack's mom answered, saying that Jack was upstairs. I thanked her and ran upstairs before bursting into his room and slamming the door shut. I walked up to him, grabbed the neck of his shirt and put him against the wall. "You are a sick fuck. You fucking slept with her." I hissed. He gulped. "She wanted to Alex, I swear. I said no at first but she wouldn't take it as an answer. I feel terrible but don't you think we should go find her instead of yelling about everything?!" He shouted back at me.

I dropped him and bit my lip hard. "She's gone Jack. I mean, gone." Jack sighed. "Dude, she can't have gone far. She's got no money. No clothes. No food." I sat down on his bed. "She came back to me Jack. This morning, she came to see me." Jack's head snapped towards me. "What?" I looked up at him. "We were talking and I fell asleep. She stole some cash off me, and her clothes. She could be anywhere." Jack started shaking, before sitting next to me. "Why didn't you stop her? Why couldn't you stay awake!?" He yelled, yanking at his hair.

"Jack. I was waiting all night for her. You could have called me, told me she was with you then maybe I could have stopped her!" He rolled his eyes. "If I told you last night that I was fucking her, so don't worry about her. You'd come round and kill me. Don't deny it." He hissed. I bit my lip. He was telling the truth, I would have killed him.

*Jack POV*

"I'm sorry bro, but we still need to find her." I insisted. "Jack. Don't bother. She's gone, like you said, she can look after herself." He said emotionless. "Alex that girl might be just a lost cause to you, but she actually means a lot to me." He stared at me like I had just said I got his mom pregnant. "She means more to me than you'll ever know you asshole." He hissed. "Then why aren't we out there looking for her?" I whispered, right in his face.

He looked right into my eyes. "Because she doesn't want to be found." He said quietly. I inhaled deeply and sat down next to him. "I want to find her. I wanted to stop her but you can't force what you want on people." I nodded, absorbing his words. Then it hit me. "Wanted to stop her? You saw her leave!?" I shouted, standing back up. "Jack..."

"No! You saw her leave, but you didn't stop her?!" He stood up and grabbed my shirt. "I tried. I tried so fucking hard Jack! You have no idea how hard I tried. But she still wanted to leave us both! So don't blame me because she fucked you and left." He bellowed through gritted teeth. "How would you feel if the girl you liked slept with you, because you thought she loved you, left while you slept?" I asked, grabbing his wrists and pulling his hands off me.

He stared at me, yanking his arms away. I knew that look. That was same look he had after his brother died. When he wouldn't tell us that he had killed himself. "Alex, you're not telling me something..." I stated softly. He looked at his feet, then back at me. "Why didn't stop her?"  I asked again, more calm this time. "She wanted to leave. To protect us." He answered. "Wanna be more cryptic?" I asked, which made him chuckle.

"Sorry man. She just said that she needed to protect us." I nodded. "It's alright man. We'll get over this."

*Grace POV*

The dye was taking to my hair now; I chose the stupidest colour imaginable. Black on blonde. Yeah, good plan. I sighed as I leant over the train's basin and washed my hair, which was so freaking difficult. The water finally ran clear so I stuck my head under the hand dryer until my hair was sort of dry, which took so long. I threw the box out and looked at myself in the mirror. Everything about the old me was gone. I was new person. I sighed and walked out into the carriage.

I walked back to seat and looked out at the speeding scenery. LA was going to be so different to what I was used to. I was gonna need a job, somewhere to stay. Just a whole new start. Everything was gonna be different this time. It just had to be.  

In the UK, we won't be watching the VMA's until Monday, but in the twist of all. Here are my choices and votes. :D

However, the video's highlighted in red are who I believe will win, but the ones in bold will be who I voted for and therefore should win.

Love xo

Here we go...

Best Female Video:
Beyonce - Single Ladies
Katy Perry - Hot 'N' Cold
Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You
Lady Gaga - Poker Face
Pink - So What

Best Male Video:
Eminem - We Made You
Jay-Z - D.O.A (Death of Auto-Tune)
Kanye West - Love Lockdown
Ne-Yo - Miss Independant
T.I. Feat. Rihanna - Live Your Life 

Best Hip-Hop Video:
Asher Roth - I Love College
Eminem - We Made You
Flo Rida - Right Round
Jay-Z - D.O.A. (Death of Auto-Tune)
Kanye West - Love Lockdown

Best New Artist:
3OH!3 - Don't Trust Me
Asher Roth - I Love College
Drake - Best I Ever Had
Kid Cudi - Day N Nite
Lady Gaga - Poker Face

Best Pop Video:
Beyonce - Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)
Britney Spears - Womanizer
Cobra Starship Feat. Leighton Meester - Good Girls Go Bad
Lady Gaga - Poker Face
Wisin y Yandel - Abusadora

Best Rock Video:
Coldplay - Viva La Vida
Fall Out Boy - I Don't Care
Green Day - 21 Guns
Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
Paramore - Decode

Unfortunatly, it's impossible for me pick bewteen Fall Out Boy, Greenday and Paramore. But FOB won my vote, but I think Green Day will steal it. I won't be hurt at all. That is one of my favourite songs and videos.

Video of The Year:
Beyonce - Single Ladies (Put A Ring On IT)
Britney Spears - Womanizer
Eminem - We Made You
Kanye West - Love Lockdown
Lady Gaga - Poker Face

Breakthrough Video:
Anjulie - Boom
Bat For Lashes - Daniel
Chairlift - Evident Utensil
Cold War Kids - I've Seen Enough
Death Cab for Cute - Grapevine Fires
Gnarls Barkley - Who's Gonna Save My Soul
Major Lazer - Hold The Line
Matt And Kim - Lessons Learned
Passion Pit - The Reeling
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Heads Will Roll

Best Video (The Should Have Won A Moonman):
Beastie Boys - Sabotage
Bjork - Human Behaviour
David Lee Roth - California Girls
Dr. Dre - Nuthin' But A 'G' Thang
Foo Fighter - Everlong
George Michael - Freedom
OK Go - Here It Goes Again
Radiohead - Karma Police
Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers - Into the Great Wide Open
U2 - Where The Streets Have No Name 

So there we go. Who did you vote for or who do you think should win?

This chapter, as a warning, is pretty sad.

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't see it with your eyes
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
Cause if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Brick By Boring Brick: Paramore.

*Grace POV*

I actually managed to sleep this time around. But not for long admittedly. I woke up at noon, and Alex was still dead asleep. Mind, he had waited up all night for me. On his calendar it said he had band practice at 3 this afternoon, so I had to leave before then. I hoped he was so tired he wouldn't wake up as I got my head off his chest and sat up. He groaned but snuggled up quickly in his duvet. He looked like a puppy with his hair all over the place. I smiled at him regrettably. My clothes were pretty close to the bed so I found them all quickly and pulled them on. I felt so dirty but I knew what I was doing was right for Alex. I was irrelevant. I tucked him back in and blew him a kiss. I quickly, but quietly threw all the clothes and stuff I could into my old rucksack. I snuck on his red hoodie. I felt bad taking it but I hoped he'd understand.

I picked up his wallet and chuckled at the picture on his driving license. He looked so young. I took $35, just enough to get me out of here. I put his wallet back and stared at him. I was shaking as I opened the door. I didn't want to leave him, I really didn't. I never felt anything like what I felt for him. I had to leave him something, but I couldn't. A clean break. I crept out of his room and shut the door quietly before sprinting down the stairs and into the kitchen. His parents had already left for work, so I grabbed some food out of the cupboards and a bottle of water. I didn't know when I was going to be eating again. I slipped on my shoes and opened the front door. I inhaled deeply as I stepped outside, with a backward glance into the house, I shut the door.

I sighed and walked away from the Gaskarth residence and into Baltimore; I needed to find the train station again. It wasn't a long walk at all, but the only train leaving in the next 30 minutes was one to LA. "Can I help you?" The ticket person said. "Can I have a one way ticket to LA?" The guy sighed and did some typing. "Okay, that's $30." I handed him the cash and grabbed my ticket from him. I looked around the station, and I caught sight of myself in a glass window. If Alex woke up and found me gone, this is the first place he'd come. I fiddled with my hair and had an idea.

I ran into the drug store, and looked around. I picked up scissors and looked around at the hair dyes. It sounded stupid, but I needed to look different. "The 12.55 train to LA is now boarding, could all passengers please board the train." I grabbed any colour I could and quickly paid with my last $5 and ran to the train. I got on and quickly sat down at the back of the carriage against the window. No one really looked at me as they got on. All I had to do was wait.

*Alex POV*

Last night was the best but most regrettable part of my life so far. "Grace?" I asked as I sat up. I looked around my room, and her clothes were gone. "Grace?" I picked up my boxer briefs and put them on. I got up and looked in the bathroom, and she wasn't there either. "What the..." I asked myself. Then I saw it. Her backpack was gone. "FUCK." I hissed grabbing my wallet. Sure enough, some of my money was gone. Not of all it.

I needed to find out where she was. She was the girl I couldn't afford to lose. I pulled on my jeans and shirt that I found on the floor; but I couldn't find my hoodie. "OH COME ON. THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING." I yelled kicking the wall. Yeah, it fucking hurt barefoot, but I ran downstairs and put my shoes on. I grabbed my keys and got in my car. I had an idea where she could be. I drove towards the train station, just praying that she was there.

I pulled up outside the station and ran. "Sir, you can't park here!" The traffic guy said. "Fucking tow me then. I don't care right now. The love of my life is in there and I need to stop her leaving." I shouted at him, sprinting inside. I looked around the station, but I saw no one that resembled her. I looked at the departure boards; the next train was one to LA. It was worth a shot. I saw the train and ran for it, but security stopped me. "Sir, you can't get passed here without a ticket." I heaved a frustrated sigh, digging through my wallet. The guys turned away for a second to help out this older woman, so I took my chance and ran for it. "Hey! You!" The guys shouted after me. I continued running until I jumped on the train. I ran down the length the carriages looking at each seat, just trying to find her. Then I saw someone at the back in a bright red hoodie. I ran to them and grabbed their arm.

"WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM DUDE?!" She yelled in a sort of distraught voice, before I pulled her hood down. It was her, and she looked scared to see me. "You can't leave. Please." I begged. "Alex, you have to understand! I don't want to hurt you." She pleaded. "Just get off the train, forget about me. Stop getting yourself in trouble." She hissed, tearing my hand off her arm. "I love you. Please, just. Stay." I caressed her cheek with the back of my hand. "I can help. I can't stand to see you leave." She bit her lower lip in tears. She grabbed my hand, stood up and kissed me.

"You, get off the train!" I heard the security yell at me. She didn't stop kissing me until the grabbed me. "I love you." She whispered before letting go of my over-stretched grip. The two guys restrained my arms, and I saw her sit back down in her seat. "Grace!  Come back! Please!" She looked out the window and ignored me. I was pretty sure I saw her wipe away a tear.

On the platform, the guys let me go as soon as the carriage doors shut. I ran up to the window and knocked on Grace's window. She looked at me and placed her hand on it. I put my hand against hers. She mouthed 'I'm Sorry' before the train started taking off. I ran with it, keeping my hand against the frosted glass until they left the platform.

"Okay, sir, I think it's time to move along." I swear, I could have cried.

We sold our souls in dark hotel rooms
We slip tongues and lie like "I will see you soon"'s
Two explorers in dark making maps and drawing shots
Put the world on notice I'm ruined and I know it
We threw the game from the start
I'm desperate and devoted the secret no one told us
My songs know what you did in the dark

My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark: Fall Out Boy

*Grace POV*

I couldn't sleep after it had happened. I just lay there, naked, with Jack's arm around my waist, his breath against my neck. His snoring filling my ears. I glanced at the clock on the wall, it was coming up to 5am. I sighed and tried shutting my eyes, hoping that I could fall asleep but every time I shut my eyes, I saw Alex. It was like he was haunting me, and it hurt me so much that I could just betray him like this. I just wanted to get rid of everything about myself, but I guess I wanted to leave Jack some form of memory. No doubt I'll just be one of many girls to have a one-night stand with him.

Alex called Jack 7 times during the night, every half an hour until Jack said that his mom was getting pissed so he had to come home. He was lying through his teeth, of course. He was at home, with me, and never left the house to begin with. I bit my lip and looked at Jack's cell phone. He'd put it on silent after Alex called at like 12. I grabbed it with my spare hand and unlocked it. '12 MISSED CALLS: ALEX BITCHHH'. I never felt so guilty. I put the cell back and made a decision. If I was gonna leave Jack with something, Alex deserved an explanation.

Slowly, I lifted Jack's arm off me and attempted getting out of bed. It was hard, but Jack seemed the deepest sleeper to ever exist. I found my clothes quickly, pulling them towards me with my feet before putting them on. I still managed not to stir Jack. I looked at him as I stood up and smiled. He was still the cutest and sweetest guy I'd ever met, but I just had to leave him. I blew him a kiss and crept out of his, shutting the door as quietly as possible. I managed to get downstairs without anyone noticing: and after finding the house key, out of Jack's house.

There was only one person I needed to see now.

*Alex POV*

I hadn't slept all night, I really hadn't. I'd had so many Red Bulls that I think they were having the opposite effect. I could feel my eye-lids dropping ever so often but I tried keeping awake. If I did fall asleep, I quickly woke up thinking Grace had come back but: she hadn't. My mom was gonna pissed I hadn't slept. And I mean, through the roof pissed. I walked up to the door and decided she wasn't coming back. I opened it and checked one last time. It was pouring down with rain and there was still no sign. I sighed and looked out on the street and there was someone running.

They ran straight to my open door, I saw their clothes. "Grace?! I yelled running outside. She ran straight into me, wrapping me up in a hug. "Let's get you inside. You must be fucking freezing." I instructed, ushering her inside and shutting the door. "Stay there." I said, running through to the kitchen and grabbing two towels waiting to go upstairs into the bathroom. I threw one at her and quickly dried my hair before going back over to her.

"Where the hell have you been?!" I hissed at her. She wiped her nose in her wet hoodie sleeve. "Alex, I'm so sorry. I really am." She whispered, choking softly on her tears. I wrapped my towel around her and snuck her upstairs, shushing her tears until we were in her room. I shut the door and wrapped her up in a bigger hug, which was to comfort her as well as to warm her up. "Alex, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have run off. I should have told you everything that'd happened. I...I...I love you."

I gulped and kissed her forehead. "Tell me what happened. Please." I begged, tucking her wet hair behind her ears. "It was an accident, he threatened to kill me." She whispered. "He had his hands, around my neck. I...I couldn't breathe. We were struggling and we got to the landing and I just pushed him away and he fell off the landing and landed straight on the floor." She said; her hands twitching as I grabbed them. She looked at me, her eyes glassing over. 

"I thought he was dead, so I stole some money off my mom and I ran. I caught the first train out of Brooklyn, to Baltimore." She stammered through. "I'll protect you, whatever happens." I said, kissing her fully on the lips. She ran her hands through my wet hair and cupped her face. I leant my forehead against hers. "I love you, and I just want to help you." I said. She smiled, which caused me to chuckle. "Alex... there is one way you could help me." She whispered. I nodded and she let her hand fall down my chest, then up my shirt. "Whoa, whoa, whoa, what are you doing?" I asked.

She bit her lip. "This is what I want. Alex, please." I wanted to, I really did, but morally, I couldn't. "I can't..." She kissed me again, harder and fiercer than before, before I knew it, I had my shirt removed, breaking the kiss.  "You can... Please, I just want you. I want to feel everything you feel. I love you." She whispered, caressing the skin of my torso. I cupped her face and kissed her. If this is what she wanted, I could give it to her.

*Grace POV*

This is what I wanted. Alex's skin against my skin, just everything was perfect. I had told him I loved him, because I did. He loved me, but I wasn't good enough for him. Now was something for him to remember me by. He held my hands, kissed me and just made me feel like I meant something. I couldn't believe that this was how we'd remember each other by. He deserved better. "I love you." I moaned to the boy above me. He kissed me, and sometimes, that meant more then words.

Therefore I didn't post. However: my friend lauralikeslollipops and I posted a journal on her buzznet. Check it out. :)

But, I have it now too. MWHAHAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE TROHMAN!

So as you may know, today it is Joseph Mark Trohman's 25^th birthday and we thought he deserved a journal saying just how amazing he is.

Firstly, he is amusing. We can't tell you the times he has made us laugh from looking at youtube videos and genuinely hilarious photos. We thought we'd share a few of our favourites.

 Jason Mraz and Chewbacca. *Grace because I'm cool* All we need for this party is Pete dressed as a penguin and Andy dressed up as Lady GaGa. xD

Back to Laura :)

He just looks very terrified. Bless him. *Grace again* Pete's picture just came up on a billboard. xD We allllll know which.

*Laura*

Self Explanatory.

*Hey, Grace again.* WHY WON'T YOU GROW TREE?! IS IT BECAUSE I LEFT YOU FOR THE MOSS!? THAT NOW LIVES ON MY WALL, BUT WHO CARES?!

*End*

Another reason is his love of the extravagant. Whether it be the moss wall as mentioned above or a velvet suit. Joe knows life's luxuries.

While on the subject on the velvet suit, I think it's time to look at Joe's... different taste in fashion.  

*Grace, hi how are ya?* HOWL AT THE MOON FOR ME BABY! YEAHHHHHHH.

I know its fancy dress but still.

The velvet suit. So wrong yet so right.

The next photo is a reason in itself...

Don't tell me you don't love it. Even Patrick can't tear his eyes away. (BTW Grace did the editing. I got a good grade in art and am therefore far more superior ;])

Now back to some more serious reasons... or maybe not. So one of our final reasons is of course, that gorgeous face. And more importantly his two blue eyes.

*Grace hereeee* Laura is kinda in a trance. I mean, seriously. If I hear her say 'pretty' one more time... Oh, wait. She melted into a big pool of fan girl slush. *pokes* Yup, that's what those eyes do to a girl. I do love them: they make me want to go swimming. CANNONBALL!! *Grace. Out.*

He's just so handsome. *Grace* Birds live in that hair. But y'know what, he is pretty damn beautiful. No denying.

HOT MEXICAN!!! (Don't ask)

Okay, so, appearance aside. What else can say about this amazing dude. He's one of the most incredibly sweet guys ever to exist. Without him, there would be no Fall Out Boy. He wouldn't have brought Patrick to Pete. Thank god for him going into that bookstore. Hey, Joe. You're one of the most amazing men I think we could ever want to meet.  As many people would know by now, Fall Out Boy is the band that helped save my life. So, I owe Joe my life in a way. For that Joe, I am so thankful. You deserve the world. We couldn't give you that, BUT we had a party in your honour. :) Gracie xo

Btw that is 25 in Roman Numerals (thank you to my big bro)

And we made a wish for you Joe.

Okay so it's my go. Joe, you are the most incredible guy. Not because you are beautiful but you are sweet and caring, I'd forgotten guys could be like that. Before you, I was in love with the Alex Pettyfers of the world. Handsome but nothing beneath the skin. Then you came along and made me smile for reasons I don't understand. You are far from perfect but that makes you even more amazing. You're an strange, crazy guy who has made me realise that that's okay. It sounds sad but you're always gunna be in my heart as the guy who made me smile. So thank you. Truly thank you. I don't think there is anything more I can say but these are the lyrics I think some up what you mean to me.

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show
The you, I've come to know

If a face could launch a thousand ships
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.

And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.


If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you
Tomorrow and today,
Beside you all the way

If the world should stop revolving spinning
Slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,

Then one by one the stars would all go out,
and you and I would simply fly away.

Thank you again. Love Gracie and Lo x