Would You Trade That Heart Of Gold For A Minute In My Skin?

Well almost.

As you know, Fall Out Boy played their European Tour in October this year. I went to the Birmingham show and had a amazing time.

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I bopped my head along as we finished our third song. “That’s amazing.” I exclaimed. Patrick was smiling, adjusting some of the bass riff in our song ‘Save You’. “Do you have the lyrics with you?” He asked. I nodded my head and pulled my notebook out of my hoodie. “Damn, we could put the vocals in if I had my mike with me.” I took off my head phones and shrugged. “Maybe later, when we’re actually recording.” He nodded, taking his headphones off as well. “That was really fun Patrick. Could you show that to the guys? See what they say.” He beamed and nodded. “Of course. Glad you like it.” I smiled slightly. “Thanks for taking care of me. I really appreciate it.” He was turning off his Mac book and shrugged. “I don’t mind. Feel free to faint when I’m around.” I sniggered and pulled the blanket off me.

“Umm, Patrick. Where’s my jeans?” He slapped his forehead, and passed me my jeans which were beside his bed. I jumped up and pulled my jeans over my hips. “Thanks. I owe you.” He shrugged and rubbed the back of his neck.  “Okay. I’ll let you know what I want in the future.” I laughed pulled my hoodie over my arms. “I’ll see you soon Trick.” He put his arms out, like he was trying to hug me. I’m always awkward around people touching me, but I let him try and I just seemed to melt. I snuggled into his chest and inhaled deeply. Patrick’s hand’s rubbed the back of my head and his other hand rested at my waist. It felt so natural and comfortable. “Hey. Come on. Don’t fall asleep on me.” I opened my eyes and let him go. “Thanks for that.” I murmured. “No problem. It was, nice, I suppose.” I nodded in agreement. “I better go now.” I whispered. It was an awkward situation. “Umm, yeah. I’ll see you later.” He said, gulping. I nodded quickly and left the room.

I leant against the closed door and banged my head on it. This wasn’t happening. “Hey Grace. Are you okay now?” I looked up. It was William. “I’m fine. What are doing even talking to me? If Pete see’s...” He shut me up by kissing me forcefully. I pushed him off. “What the fuck was that for?!” He shrugged. “You didn’t say no last night.” I couldn’t say much. He was right. “But that was last night. I’ve had time to think and...” I glanced, seeing Ashley, Pete and Sammy walking down the hall. “Grace, I thought you were resting.” Ashley stated. I sighed. “I’m fine. Just fine.” Pete glared at Will and then at me. “Hi!” A small high-pitched voice squealed at me. “Um, hi.” I replied to the young four year old. “I’m Sammy!” I nodded. “I know. I’m Grace.”  She smiled widely. “I like your trousers.” She said, rubbing my yellow jeans. “Erm thanks. They’re my favourites.” She pulled on Ashley’s hand. “Yes baby?” Sammy signalled her to kneel down. Ashley nodded as the child whispered in her ear.

 “I’ll ask her sweetheart. Sammy asks if you would like to come to our house sometime.” Pete answered for me. “She will be. We need to write for their record, make sure their signed properly. So, she’ll be round soon.” The small girl clapped. I gulped, glancing into the girl’s eyes, then into Will’s. How could he not see it? “Grace is free!” I heard Jenn yell. Everyone tackled me. “Yes! I’m free!” We all laughed.  “I thought you were going to be in there forever. Like Ashley and Patrick were keeping you prisoner or something.” Liana said, totally ignoring the fact that Ashley was right behind us. “Not exactly.” I chuckled. “Hey, Alison’s buzzed.” Haley said, pointing behind her towards a silent Alison. “Why?” Haley signalled me to lean in closer, so she could whisper in my ear. “All Time Low are staying here tonight. She wants to meet Alex.” I nodded in understanding.

“Hey there you guys are!” I heard a male voice sing towards us. Brendon, Ryan, Jon and Spence. Brendon headed straight for Liana, casually laying his arm around her waist. “How is the now conscious?” He asked. I smiled, they looked so sweet. “I’m much better thanks Brendon.” Ryan was talking to Nicole and Haley, his eyes fixed mainly on Haley. “Call me Bren, or whatever.” I nodded. I felt someone pull on my leg. I glanced down, it was Sammy. “Can I tell you a secret?” She whispered loudly.  I gulped, but nodded all the same. I knelt down to her height and flicked the hair away from my ear. “My daddy has a picture of you in my room. I thought you were my mommy until my daddy said my mommy died in a car accident.” I could feel the tears in my eyes. “Thanks for sharing that sweet heart.” I glared at Pete who was embracing Ashley.

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Everyone seems to have their own version of hell. Mine had just burst into flames in front of me. I shot up, sweating, catching the attention of Ashley who was sat in the chair near the bed I was lying on and Patrick who was on his Mac book on the bed next to mine. “Lie back down dear.” Ashley said softly, pushing me back down. She put a cold flannel to my forehead. I really needed to stop passing out. “Where am I?” I asked my voice hoarse as it stuck in my throat. “You’re in my room.” Patrick said. “Don’t panic.” I nodded, not quite sure what to say really. Patrick smiled and started stroking my hair like I was child. It felt relaxing.

Ashley was busy fussing over me, making sure I had enough to drink or that I was eating. “Is Pete okay?” I asked just to stop her from checking my temperature again.  “He’s fine. He’s very worried about you. We all were. William especially.” I gulped at the sound of Will’s name. “They didn’t need to be. I’m absolutely fine.”  I replied, slight venom in my voice. I had nothing against Ashley, I was just annoyed that everything was catching up with me and I was glued to the spot. Ashley’s phone started ringing on the table. She grabbed it and flipped it open. “Hey Pete. What? Okay, I’ll come get her now. Love you too.” I slammed the phone shut and looked at Patrick. “Can you look after her? Just for an hour or so while a set Sammy off to sleep.” Patrick nodded straight away. Ashley sighed gratefully at him and snatched her bag from the chair and left the room.

Patrick was still stroking my hair gently in a small rhythm. “It’s nice to finally meet you by the way.” Patrick said, taking his hand away. I sat up, keeping the blanket that covered me over my legs. “Why?” He smiled and chuckled. “Pete always talked about you. Little drops here and there.” I nodded. Why did Pete talk about me so much? “You look kinda shocked.” He stated, resting the back of his hand against my forehead. “I am. I haven’t seen him in years. Id’ thought he’d forgotten about me.” He chuckled and ruffled my hair. “He kept a picture of you with him. I think you were holding Sammy in it when she was a real little baby.” My muscles tensed. Patrick felt it. “Whoa. What did I say wrong?” I looked him in the eyes. Thankfully, we were interrupted by small taps on the door. Patrick walked over and opened it.

Liana, Haley, Alison and Nicole came to my bedside bearing chocolates and flowers. “For the beloved.” Liana said bowing. I laughed and took the chocolates from her. “Thanks’ Lili.” I said, smiling. She sat beside me and wrapped her arms around my neck. “I thought you had died!” She stated. “Not quite. I just passed out.” Haley knelt by my feet and hugged the backboard. “What is it with you huh? You passed out yesterday in Will’s arms and earlier in Patrick’s. It’s not working if you want to pull them both.” I chuckled. “I’m not. Just shock I suppose.” Alison sat herself down by my feet on the bed and tapped my leg. “You gave us all quite a shock. Don’t do it again please.” I nodded, grinning. The all started chatting to me like nothing had happened. Nothing really had in their minds. In mine, thoughts and memories were glimmering in my head. Scaring me as I tried to show no emotion as they talked.

“Pete, just take her. I can’t look at her.” I said, hugging my knees tightly. He sighed and hugged me from the side. “But she’s yours. She’s part of you. I’ll take her if you’re really sure.” I gulped but nodded all the same. “What will you do in the future? If you see her with me, will you want her then?” I was shaking. “I’ll think of that when I need to. Please, just look after her, love her. Give her everything she deserves.” He nodded, but I could see he was crying. “Where will you go?” I wiped my eyes quickly. “My aunt in New Jersey said she’d look after me. Say thanks to your mom for me yeah?” He pecked my cheek and held me tighter.

“.... Brendon really wants to help with our first record. I think that will be amazing what do you think Grace?” I shot back into reality. “Um, yeah. That’d be great.” Liana smiled. “Things going well with Brendon then?” She sighed dreamily. “I’ll take that as a yes.” She clapped her hands. “He fluffing carried me into the lift. I thought I was dreaming. He even asked me if he could take me out tonight, so I can give him my opinion on some new songs he’s working on.” Haley sighed. “That’s all she’s been talking about since. It’s getting on my nerves.” Nicole ignored the small argument between Liana and Haley and turned to me. “You sure you’re all right?” I nodded while Alison started eating the chocolates they bought. “Okay, everyone out for a bit. She needs rest.” Patrick said out of the blue. Everyone shrugged and hugged me goodbye.

He came back and took Nicole place next to me. “Brendon and your friend Liana seem to be getting on well.” I nodded, fiddling with the blanket covering my knees. “If you’re feeling up to it, I’d like to work on some songs with you. If that’s cool.” I gulped but smiled. “I’d love that.” He took his Mac book and opened up Garage Band. He placed some earphones over his ears and put some over mine. “First song?”

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No one could be more embarrassed right now then Liana. Her mouth dropped open as she body just remained in the stature of shock. Haley shook her but when another man walked behind Liana’s dream, she couldn’t move either.  The two men stood there, staring at the girls and then just chuckling quietly to themselves. “Liana. Haley.” I waved my hand in front of their faces. “Umm, I’m sorry guys but half of The Disgrace has gone into shock.” The elder giggled. “It’s okay. We’re kinda used to it. At least they’re not screaming I suppose.” Alison ended up slapping Liana and Haley before we could at least one syllable out of them. “You may want to leave for a few minutes. Then bring reinforcements.” The younger man smiled widely and chuckled. “It’s Brendon Urie. It’s Brendon Urie. It’s Brendon Urie!” Liana screamed at Alison. Ryan sighed into Brendon’s shoulder. Brendon could see the funny side of it. “At least we have a cute screaming fan girl I suppose.” He winked in Liana’s direction. She pretty much fainted. “Brendon. Stop that before I take your eyes out of your god damned sockets.” Ryan muttered. Haley, thankfully, wasn’t screaming but was rocking backwards mumbling something with none of us could understand.

Ryan looked pretty concerned and went up her, kneeling on the floor in front of her. “Are you okay? Can you hear me?”  Haley nodded meekly in response. “I think she’s gone into shock.” Brendon clapped his hands. “Congratulations Dr. Ross. Way to point out the obvious.” Another knock on the door. “I’ll get it!” Brendon shouted while Ryan was still staring at Haley and Haley vice versa. Jenn was at the door with Melissa. “Honey I’m home!” She yelled before looking up. Nicole started laughing. “Nice to see you too dear.” Brendon said slightly confused raising one eye-brow. Jenn had flushed a deep red while Melissa just laughed. “Oh lord. What happened in here?” Melissa said, looking at Liana, who looked either half-dead or just dazzled by Brendon. I went with option two. “Liana fell in love.” I said sarcastically. Melissa sat on the bed next to her and fanned her. I couldn’t help but laugh. Brendon looked down at me, not in the intimidating way. I just so short. 5 ft 3.5 inches to be exact. “You’re...?” I smiled and held my hand out. “Grace. I play lead guitar.” He snapped his fingers and shook my hand enthusiastically. “As your friend pointed out. Brendon.” I smiled and struggled to get my hand free. He felt my struggle and freed my hand. “Sorry babe.” I shrugged. “Shall we get everyone downstairs for breakfast of some description?”  

Ryan, who managed to get his eyes away from Haley, nodded, trying to lift her up. Nicole and Alison supported Liana, but gave up after she fell back down. “Excuse me. I’ll take her.” Brendon scooped a shaking Liana in his arms, carrying her with ease out of the room. “Ohh, look at Mr. Muscle go.” Ryan scowled. I laughed, and grabbed my hoodie before leaping into the lift. The doors started to shut. Oh well, they’ll just have to catch the next one. “Grace, there you are!” I heard someone behind me shout. I turned around. It was Pete. He wrapped me up tightly. I was pretty sure I could a slight dampness on my shoulder. “Whoa, dude. You’re make-up will smudge if you’re crying.” He chuckled and lifted his head up. Small tears, ones of concern because he was one of the people in my life who genuinely cared about me. I heard two other people chuckle. Pete turned around. “She can laugh at me Trick. You can’t.” I gulped.

A man with long gingery-blonde hair, emerald eyes framed in thick black glasses looked up from under his trucker cap. Patrick Stump. I gulped; this couldn’t get worse any worse. “What about me then sweetheart? Aren’t wife’s allowed to laugh at their husbands anymore?” A young woman, mid-twenties, obviously pregnant asked, putting her arm around Pete’s waist. Ashley Simpson-Wentz. That meant... I glanced at the corner. There sat a small child, a girl playing with  an old battered teddy bear.  I started shaking. Pete noticed, his features glazed over with fear and concern.

“You okay sweetheart?” Ashley asked, rubbing my arms with her moisturised hands. Patrick came up  to me and held onto my shoulders. “Pete, she looks like she’s going to pass out.” Patrick stated. In the claustrophobic space, I couldn’t escape. I was hyperventilating by now. “Whoa. Okay.” Patrick groaned as I felt my legs go limp. “Ashley, get Sammy while me and Patrick sort Grace out.” Ashley nodded and picked the shocked child up, balancing her on her hip. “Momma, what’s wrong with her?” Ashley shushed her and as soon as the lift opened fled with the child in her arms. Patrick put my arm around his shoulder and lifted me pretty much so we were sat in the lobby. “I’ve got her Trick.” Patrick nodded and let me go. I was still shaking. Patrick sat pretty close by, worried about my sudden emotions. “How could you Pete? How could you?” Pete sighed and put his hands on my knees. “I had no choice. I couldn’t just leave her there alone.” The lift binged, revealing my friends along with a discrete William Beckett. As soon as he saw me, he raced over. “What happened?” I just shut my eyes. I didn’t want to look anymore.

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Part Three

“Mom!” Grace heard someone shout. “Mommy! Wake up!” She sighed and unwillingly opened her eyes. Melody was jumping on her bed, trying to wake her up. Grace quickly pulled the duvet up to her chest, looking at all her clothes on the bedroom floor. Patrick’s were gone. He was such an asshole given the time. She dragged her fingers through her hair and smiled at a hyper Melody. “Hey baby. What are you doing up huh?” She smiled and sat cross-legged next to her. “I woke up and came to get daddy. He’s making breakfast!” Grace chuckled. Patrick can’t cook to save his life. Melody cocked her head to the side and back straight again, a confused look covered her sweet, young features. “Why have you got no clothes on mom?” Grace rubbed the back of her neck “Ermmm. I was really hot during the night so I took off my pyjamas?” Melody’s mouth created an ‘o’ before she bit her bottom lip, just like her father did when he was nervous, confused or just wanted to look cute. Grace reached for her panties and shirt without falling out of the bed or showing off any part of her body, failing. She looked at Patrick’s side of the bed; there was one of his t-shirt’s and a pair of her underwear. She pulled them on, being careful not to knock Melody off the bed. She sat up and looked at her daughter who was playing with her little fingernails like they were the most interesting thing in the world. Grace smiled, grabbed her daughter and starting tickling her. Melody giggled hysterically. Grace pulled the duvet over their heads and continued tickling Melody’s sides before hugging her. Melody, still chuckling softly pulled herself onto her mother’s lap. “What the hell is going on in here?” Patrick, said as he walked into the room carrying Freddie in his arms. “Mommy was ticking me.” Melody said sweetly, snuggling into her mother’s chest. “We live in a house full of crazy women Freddie.” Grace chuckled. “Do not corrupt my son.” Patrick sat down on the bed by Grace’s feet. “But we love them Freddie, don’t we?” He cooed and nodded. Grace shook her head and pulled the duvet off her and Melody. “He needs feeding...” Grace said. Patrick put a finger to his nose. “Already done it.” She shook her head and stood up, pulling Melody up onto her hip. “Now, have you completely trashed my kitchen or ruined what I had the fridge?” She asked, walking out of the room and down the stairs. “Excuse me, what’s that supposed to mean?” Grace and Melody laughed. “It means that someone can’t cook.” Grace answered pecking Melody’s nose. To her surprise, the kitchen was clean. She put Melody down and stretched. On the table was a small bowl of cereal and a vase with a single blood red rose in it. Not to mention coffee. “Patrick, you didn’t have to.” He smiled and shrugged. “Fine, I haven’t eaten yet this morning.” Grace shook her head and sat down with Patrick, who was holding Freddie. “Pete and Jess are coming round later. Joe and Andy probably too so we can start working on some new stuff.” Grace nodded her head, sipping the still boiling coffee. Melody pulled herself onto the chair next to her mother and smiled. “Uncie Pete? I haven’t seen him in forever!” Patrick smirked. “I know. He can’t wait to see you either!” Grace beamed and stood up. “Let’s get you dressed then hon.” Melody jumped up to her mother, who caught her. “Can you dress Freddie?” Patrick nodded as Grace headed up the stairs. Grace nudged open Melody’s door and placed her down. The girl ran and opened her wardrobe standing there with her hands on her hips. “What do you want to wear then?” Grace asked, picking her daughter up again. The infant pulled a blue dress out of the wardrobe. It was one of Grace’s favourites. A little blue dress with small flowers on. “Okay. What else?” The girl tried to reach down but Grace knelt down for her and grabbed a pair of grey tights. “Come on then, let’s get you washed and dressed then?” Grace asked, walking towards the bathroom. They heard the door knock from downstairs. “I got it!” Patrick shouted up. The ladies of the new Stump family went into the bathroom and the elder started running a small bath for the younger. “Babe! You better come down!” Grace sighed and planted her daughter on the floor. “Wait here. Do not move until Daddy comes up okay?” The younger girl nodded and watched her mother leave. Grace bounded down the stairs towards the door. “Go watch her for a second then please.” Patrick nodded and brushed his lips against hers. She was going to need it. Grace opened the door a fraction and the person behind it threw her off course. “What are you doing here?”

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“William! William get your skinny ass awake and open this god damn door!” I heard someone yell. I opened my eyes and took in the hotel room around me. I felt Will’s long and slender arm pull away from my waist. “Fuck!” He hissed, jumping out of the bed. “William! Come on man!” Someone shouted, banging on the door. “It’s Pete.” I whispered leaping out of the bed too. “Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.” William hissed, pulling on his jeans that were on his floor. I pulled on my vest and jeans and grabbed my underwear. “Will! Come on! Open this fucking door!” We both stared at each other, that was Adam. “Where can I hide?” I asked, looking around the room. William, who was most defiantly panicking, pointed to the closet. I dived into it and Will came up behind me. “I’m coming. Hold on!” He shouted. He smiled and kissed me quite forcefully. “Two seconds.” He shut the door and went to let in Pete and Adam.  “Dude, come on. How long does it take you to wake up?” Pete asked. Adam laughed. “He’s like this on tour. Mike or Chizzy normally jump on him.” I giggled quietly, hoping they didn’t hear me. Pete’s loud laugh thankfully covered me up. “Thanks Adam. What do you guys want anyways?” I could only see a little but I saw Pete shrug and point at Adam. “Well, Panic’s going to be here soon. In a few hours anyways. And, I was wandering if you’d seen Grace.” I froze. I prayed for Will to think of something. “No, sorry. I haven’t. If you let me get dressed and I’ll let you know if I do see her?” Pete nodded; he looked more worried than Adam about my whereabouts. They left and I opened the closet door and fell into William. He giggled and stood me up. “You’re such a clutz.” He said. I shrugged and smiled. “I better get back to my room. I’ll see you later?” He nodded and bent down to kiss me. I stopped him. “I’ll see you later Will.” He nodded and let me out of the room. I hid my underwear in my hoodie and knocked on my hotel room door. Nicole, in a towel, answered it. “Oh my god!” She wrapped her spare arm around my neck before pulling me into the room. “Where have you been?!” She yelled. She sounded exactly like my mother. “I went out. It’s nothing, seriously.” Liana came out of the bathroom. “Someone decided to return then! Where did you go? Did you meet a guy or something?” I shrugged. “Maybe.” Liana laughed. “You have to stopping pulling, I swear.” I slapped her exposed arm. “Says the girl who plans to have Brendon Urie on top of her by the end of the night!”  Liana stared at me, gobsmacked. I ran for the shower and dived inside. After washing my hair, I stepped out and wrapped myself in a large, fluffy white towel. I used all the free samples hotel give you, because when you live in a van and are on tour permanently. It’s nice have a little bit of luxury. I unlocked the door and went into the room where Minnie was asleep while Liana and Nicole were eating something. “Don’t tell me you guys ordered room service?”  Liana smiled and nodded, eating piece of toast. I sighed and rubbed my hair with another towel.  “Leave some for me. I haven’t eaten in forever.” Nicole stole the last of the coffee and sipped it slowly. “Your own fault.” I grabbed Minnie’s rucksack and pulled out one pair of skinnies and a TAI shirt I own. She always keeps some of my clothes because I’m the least organised person in the world. Ever. I ran back into the bathroom and threw on my clothes, hoping not to get Minnie’s jeans wet.  Quickly dried my hair and found Liana’s straighter’s. I opened the bathroom door, confronted by Alison and Haley. “Hey Grace.” Haley said smiling. Alison nodded in my direction and handed me my make-up bag. They obviously went to the van and grabbed my stuff. “Thanks. I’ll be done in 5 minutes.”  I quickly applied foundation and eyeliner across my eye-lids into spikes at the edge of my eyes. Some black eye-shadow and Vaseline on my lips, I was done. I put my bag in my rucksack Haley had grabbed from the van. “So, where did you meet guy last night? You don’t normally just go off with one guy you’ve just met.” Alison stated, chipping off her red nail-varnish. “He was extremely cute. Very tall and skinny. He was just a nice a polite guy.” Haley shook her head and laughed. “Was he any good...y’know? Down below?” I had no clue what she was going on about. Liana sighed. “She means his penis stupid!” Liana shouted. We all burst out laughing. “Whoa we came in at the wrong time...” A male voice said. We glanced towards the door. I couldn’t help erupt with laughter.

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He sat down on the deck chair next to me, sighing. “How’ve you been?” I shrugged. “Not too bad. How about you? Your quite big now.” He smiled. “Yeah, I can’t believe it sometimes. It’s scary to think about really.” I nodded. “So, we’re going to label mates?”  I sighed and put my notebook in my hoodie pocket. “Looks like it.” I replied. This couldn’t be more awkward if we tried. He sighed and dragged his fingers through his hair. “Look, let’s get straight to the point.” He said, breaking the silence. I looked at him, ready to face whatever insult he would throw at me. “You lied to me, I did something incredibly stupid and now we can’t even say two words to each other without feeling awkward. Then you left without a trace.” I gulped, not as bad as I expected. “I left for a reason...”

“Why? Tell me.” I shifted in my seat and sighed. “I can’t even tell my own my brother, so makes you think I’ll tell you why I left?” He sighed, frustrated.  “It obviously had something to do with me because you left straight after!” He shouted at me. “So what if it did! It doesn’t matter anymore!”  We were both standing up, trying to control our rising anger. “It matters to me! I feel like a complete fucking asshole for that night! Then Adam came to me saying you’d left and his parents just continued with their normal life! I want to know why you left!” I swear, I could have punched him. “So you don’t have to feel so guilty! Well sorry, not going happen anytime soon!” He grunted and dragged his fingers through his hair. “I’m not trying to get off my guilt trip, I just care...” I forced a single laugh. “If you cared at all about me, you wouldn’t have done me that night!” He stared at me. “You didn’t exactly say no!” I slapped my forehead and sat back down. “I was thirteen! I didn’t know what the hell I wanted!” He shrugged and pulled my face up so we were looking at each other. “You knew exactly want you wanted. Why can’t you look at me anymore if you wanted me?”

Because I just see her.

“I don’t know.” I answered way too quickly for his comfort. “You do know. You just won’t tell me.” We were both calm now. He smirked quite smugly. “You still want me. Gracie Jayne Siska still wants me!” I stood up and my hand flew to slap him, but he grabbed my wrist. His lips collided with mine, it was an angry kiss. We both hated each other but loved each other at the same time. To be honest, I did still want him, what girl wouldn’t. He let me go after a few minutes. He let go of my wrist and sighed. “Sorry, I shouldn’t have done that.” He said, his face still really close to mine. I could feel his breath on my cheeks. “It’s okay. It happened.” My eyes were still closed so I didn’t see him kiss me again, but it was soft and tender. Like Romeo and Juliet without the fancy, old English that no one understands. We split apart slowly and I opened my eyes. He really was beautiful. “Maybe we could go upstairs?” He asked. “Are you implying what I think you’re implying?” he chuckled. “Maybe. You’ll have to come upstairs and see.” I smirked.

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“I never kissed a member of the opposite sex.” Minnie said. We were all pretty drunk by now, apart from Pete who seems to have pretty much done everything but knew how to handle his drink. Pete, William and Jenn drank their shots. “Jennifer, you dark horse!” Haley screamed. Jenn shook her head. “We were very drunk. Remember that show we played in Dallas?” We all nodded. “We all went out after and this guy bought us all drinks. His girlfriend kissed me and he took a picture. Nothing serious.” Nicole laughed. “Sure it wasn’t.” She slapped her arm, causing us to fall over and laugh hysterically. Nicole is very funny when drunk. “Okay. My turn. I have never had sex.” Alison said. I laughed, she was ‘saving’ herself for Alex. Of course, all the guys drank a long with most of us. I downed my shot and wiped my mouth before putting my shot glass roughly on the floor. Haley starred at me. “You never said! Who was it?!” I bit my bottom lip. “This isn’t truth or dare. No questions please.” I replied. She stuck her tongue out at me and I began pouring myself another shot, but Pete stopped me. “I think that’s enough for one evening. We have work to do in the morning.” Everyone sighed but stood up as best they could, some of us stumbling out of the room. “You’re such a spoil sport Pete. I thought you liked to party!” Nicole said, leaning on Liana who was too busy trying to stay upright herself. “I do, just not now.” His cell started buzzing, he signalled us to wait one second while he answered it. He lifted the top half and put it to his ear. “Brendon.” Liana’s eyes shot opened. “Brendon fucking Urie!” She screamed. We all burst out in hysterics, Liana loved Brendon. Pete rubbed his available ear and laughed. “Sorry Brendon, I just had your biggest fan screaming in my ear.” I heard him laugh through the receiver. “Yeah. I’ll see you tomorrow then.” As soon as he shut he phone, Liana screamed again. “Brendon Urie is coming here tomorrow?” Pete glanced at us and dunked down to my level. “Will she scream again?” He whispered in my ear. I looked at him and nodded. “You may want to put in earplugs if you keep them with you.” He giggled and sighed. “Yes, Brendon Urie is coming here tomorrow. “ Liana, instead of just screaming, decided she would jump up and down and scream at the same time. Haley tackled her to the ground. “Shut up Liana!” Pete coughed. “This isn’t going to help but, all of Panic is coming.” Haley stared at him in awe.  “Bad idea Pete. Really bad idea.” He smiled. “Why?” Haley started jumping. “Ryan Ross is coming! Ryan fucking Ross!” She squealed and clapped her hands. “That’s why.” I pointed out. “Right, let’s get you to our rooms.” Nicole said, grabbing Haley and pulling down the hall towards the rooms Pete had booked for us. Alison and Minnie managed to pick up Liana and drag her backwards. Jenn, Melissa and I walked back to our rooms. I was sharing with Liana, Nicole and Minnie. I waved at the guys and shut the door. Liana was lying on the double bed, still excited about the Brendon situation.  Nicole and Minnie were flicking through the TV, trying to drown out Liana’s squeals. I sat down in the chair next to the bed. Minnie glanced at me. “So, who was it?” I looked up. “Who was what?” She licked her lips and smiled. “Who did you lose your virginity too?” I sighed. “Minnie, some things are private.” Nicole decided to join the embarrassing conversation. “Okay, how old were you?” I rubbed my neck. “Young. Too young really.” Minnie came and sat on the arm of the chair. “Oh my god, how old were you?” I gulped. “This doesn’t leave this room. Understood?” Minnie and Nicole nodded. “Understood Liana?” I shouted over to her. “Understood what?” We laughed; she was too dazed about her precious Brenny Bear. “I was thirteen.” Nicole and Minnie gawped at me. “Fuck me...” Liana said. “No thanks, not right now.” Nicole said. We chuckled. “Seriously. Thirteen?” I nodded. “How old was he?” I sighed. “What is this twenty fucking questions!?” I shouted. I pulled on my hoodie and grabbed my notebook. “Where are you going!?” Nicole shouted as I pulled on my converse. “Out. I’ll be back in a bit.” I slammed the door shut. I went down in the elevator to the back of the hotel. Reminder: Chicago is a little chilly, even with a jacket on. I sat on one of the deck chairs facing the pool. I opened my notebook and grabbed my pen out of my pocket. I scribbled down some words that made no real sense, just gibberish.

Once upon a time

I was a girl

You were a boy

We lived up in the sky

We were brought back down

With a heavy hand

Reality.

I saw someone’s shadow reflect off the water in the pool. I turned around and saw him. “I guessed we could talk.” I nodded. “I guess we could.”

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Part Two

Grace just stood there, speechless. Patrick had just asked her to marry him, even with the whole one knee façade. He started to get up, slightly disappointed. “Whoa, hey, what’s wrong?” Grace asked, falling back into reality. “What’s wrong?” He said in disbelief. “I just poured my heart my heart out to you. Fucking asked you to marry me and you just stand there!” He ranted, waving his arms in the air. She grabbed them and put them down by his side. “Relax will you! I was just shocked. I wasn’t expecting you here tonight, let alone a proposal.” He inhaled deeply and bit his bottom lip. “Okay. Okay.” She smirked and let go off his arms. “You calm now?” He nodded and took the velvet box out of his tight jean pocket. Grace rubbed her lips together and took the box from him; his hand was calmly as she touched it. Her shaky hand opened the soft box, revealing a small sliver ring. She gasped and covered her mouth with her spare hand. Engraved into the thin circle of sliver was a small hexagon shaped ruby surrounded with small diamonds. “Patrick, it’s beautiful. I can’t accept this... It must cost you so much. I...” Patrick put his finger to her lips. “You can take it. I picked out for you, fuck the cost. You’re worth every single penny.” She gave Patrick the box and quickly wiped away her tears. “Well, are you going to marry me?” He teased. She giggled and nodded before wrapping her arms around his neck. His arms locked themselves around her waist, still with the ring box in his left hand. She let him go and quickly wiped her eyes. Patrick smiled and took hold of her sweaty left hand and slipped it on her wedding finger. She smiled as she looked down on it, it seemed to glimmer and reflect the moonlight. He kissed the ring and gripped her hand tightly. “So, we’re going to get married?” Patrick asked, looking down at their entwined hands. Grace chuckled and kissed his cheek. “An engagement normally leads to a marriage, or at least that’s what I’ve heard.” He raised his eye-brows put his arms securely around her waist. “You look cold my love.” He whispered in her ear. She kissed the edge of his lips, placing her icy hands on the sides of his face. “I am.” She kissed his lips lightly. “Very.” He raised his eyebrows and kissed her forcefully. They moved backwards together towards the basement French windows until Grace’s back clashed with the glass. Patrick’s hands were everywhere, in her hair, under her shirt and trying to get under her skirt. Grace’s arms were locked around his neck, not letting him escape under any circumstances. He redundantly pulled his lips away from hers and felt for the door handle. Grace had found his weak spot on his neck which made him loose concentration on trying to find a way into his house. She moved her lips away and felt behind her for the door handle. The door flew open resulting in Grace falling backwards into the basement converted into a studio and changing area onto the cold lino. Patrick fell on top of her, trapping her beneath him. “Fuck, my back.” Grace hissed. He laughed and stood up, holding out his hand for her. She took it and let him pull her up. He smiled and rubbed her lower back. She moaned softly. “That better?” She nodded and wrapped herself back around him. “Trick! You here!?” They heard Pete shout from upstairs. Grace stomped her foot and cursed under her breath while Patrick just laughed and started dragging her up the stairs. “10 minutes together Pete. That’s all we ask.” She said entering the living room. He sighed. “Not my fault Grace. I had to wake up Cassie and bring her here as Wentz was so desperate to see Trick even though they had only seen each other a few hours ago.” Jess muttered. Pete laughed it off as pregnancy hormones. Not a great idea. “So, Trick. Have you asked her?” Pete asked, winking in his direction putting his arm around Jess’s shoulder. “Has he asked her what?” Pete gave her a quick glance and she nodded her head. “Oh, that.” Pete nodded slowly “Yesss.” He said like Jess was slow. Patrick chuckled and held out Grace’s left hand. Jess leaped for it and examined the ring on her finger. “You really splashed out on this Patrick. Very nice.” Grace smiled at Jess’s comment and let her continue her exanimation of the ring. “Did you organise all of this Wentz?” Grace asked, putting her arm around Patrick’s waist. “Give the man some credit. He organised everything and just ran it past me. As I am the true romantic in this room.” Jess shook her head and slapped Pete’s arm. “Says the man who thought it was romantic to announce my pregnancy to his friend’s by shouting it at a show. With my parents backstage with me.” Pete shrugged, causing Patrick to laugh. “Well. This calls for a celebration!” Jess shouted pulling a bottle of champagne from her bag. Patrick took it and put it on the coffee table. “Thanks you guys, but I would like to have some alone time with my fiancé before she strangles me.” Pete laughed; pulling Jess by the waist as they walked out of the house. “Dude, you just want to fuck her. Don’t call it alone time when we all know what you’re getting up too.” Grace chuckled, slightly embarrassed as Patrick let Pete and Jess out. Patrick came back and wrapped Grace up in his arms. “Sorry about that. Where were we?” Grace raised her eye-brows and ran his index finger down his chest. “Right about here.” She reached and kissed his lips. He smirked into the kiss and slid his hands under her tight shirt. She twirled his hair around her fingers and knocked his hat off in the process. They fell onto the couch, letting nothing stop them. “Mommy!” The pair heard from the top of the stairs. Patrick got off Grace an let her re-do the buttons on her shirt before running up the stairs. “Baby, what’s wrong?” Grace cooed at the young girl, picking her up. “I had a nightmare and you weren’t there.” The small girl had dry tears etched upon her face as she grasped her teddy bear daddy bought her. Grace hugged her tightly and made reassuring noises. “I’m right here baby.” She cooed. Patrick, watching his family clambered up the stairs softly. The small girl opened her tired eyes and looked at the man on the stairs, coming towards her and her mommy. She reached her arms out to him when his face came into light. “Daddy!” Patrick smiled and took the girl from Grace’s arms into his own. “Hey beautiful. How you doing?” She smiled widely and locked herself around him. “I missed you daddy!” Grace shook her head and smiled. “I missed you too; now let’s get you back to bed hmm?” Melody snuggled into her daddy’s shoulder and let him carry her into her pale pink bedroom. Patrick put her back down in her bed and tucked her in tight. He pecked her forehead and sang to her, stroking her hair. “I’ve got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match. What a catch. What a catch. And all I can think of is the way I’m the one who charmed. Who gave up on you. Who gave up on you.” He held the last note, checking that his daughter’s eyes were shut. She was quickly asleep. He crept out of the room, leaving the door open slightly. He walked across the hallway, looking in on his son as he past his room. He opened the door to his bedroom, and looked inside before walking in. Grace was lying in the bed. Patrick chuckled and leapt at her. She giggled and let him do want he wanted for most of the night until they both fell asleep in each other’s arms.

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