Would You Trade That Heart Of Gold For A Minute In My Skin?

Sorry, sorry, sorry. I really am. I've been feeling unimaginitve recently, but I'm get back into this now. :) Sorry for the wait.

I've got a secret
Please don't repeat it
I took the chemicals we took to make our chemistry
And I remixed it
It didn't fix it
All it did was make our memories a blur to me

Doctor: Cute Is What We Aim For

*Alex POV*

What the fuck was I doing? Sensible, sober Alex was saying: What the fuck are you doing man? Are you aware that you're kissing a fucking minor? You could get put in jail if anyone saw this. Irrational, drunk Alex was saying:  Who gives a fuck, one kiss isn't gonna hurt. Back to sensible: Stop it now you stupid mother fucker. I leapt away, resulting in me falling off the end of the bed. I banged my head, hard, against the wooden desk before landing fully on the carpeted floor. "Mother fucker!" I yelled holding my head as I sat up. Grace had hopped off the bed and rushed to my side. "Oh my god, are you alright?"

"Do I look fucking alright?!" I yelled at her, keeping my hand against the back of my head. She winced but still knelt there. "Sorry, I shouldn't have shouted at you like that." I sighed a few seconds later. She smiled weakly. "It's okay; do you want me to check you out?" She asked, pointing to where my hand was. "Okay, you have a medical degree I don't know about?" I asked sarcastically, shuffling so she could get the back of my head. She chuckled and took my and away. "No, I normally patched my brother back home. He'd, like, always get into fights and stuff with other kids." She winced for me as she looked. "You're bleeding, so I'm gonna get a towel and stuff to clean up the cut with." I nodded, putting my hand back over the gash on my hand.

She was back in a matter of minutes with crap I didn't even know we had in the house, let alone know how to use. She knelt back down behind me, so I leaned my back against her knees. I moved my hand away and let her loose at the back of my head. She cleaned it, which made me wince and bit my lip so hard I seriously thought I was going to bite it off. She then washed my sticky, bloody hair between a towel, rubbing it to try and get most of the blood out. "It's just a small cut. Trust me, you'll be okay." She reassured me. I nodded, rubbing the back of my head. "Thanks." I said, turning back around to face her. "Listen about that kiss..." I started. She sighed, putting the towel on the ground. "I know you have a girlfriend, so if you don't want to mention it then we won't. I'm sorry; I shouldn't have kissed you..." I covered her mouth with my hand, chuckling and shaking my head. "Okay a, I really don't want to mention it to Lisa and b, I shouldn't have kissed back. It takes two to tango you know."

She smiled a little and nodded. "Right." I sighed, standing up. "I have to go check on these drunks downstairs, you alright?" I asked, ruffling her hair. She nodded, looking down at the suddenly interesting towel. I didn't wanna leave but if they woke up, I'd better be there. With a sad smile, I opened the door and shut it, jogging down the stairs.

*Grace POV*

I slapped my forehead with the heel of my hand and fell back onto the floor. How could have I been so freaking stupid? I FUCKING KISSED HIM. I am such a horrible, terrible, unmoral slut of a person. Just like he said. He was so right about me; I did deserve all that shit. I rubbed my eyes hard and sat back up, sighing. I inhaled sharply and dragged my fingers through my hair, staring at the wall. No. He wasn't right about me. I didn't deserve anything he did to me, none of it at all. Like Alex had said, it takes two to tango. He was as much to blame as I was. I jumped up and straightened out my clothes before cleaning up the towel and medical stuff I used on Alex's head.

I did re-lock my door, in case one of Alex's drunk friends or Alex just walked in. I decided to crawl back into my bed, officially giving up for the evening. I couldn't be bothered to change into different clothes to sleep in so I just kicked off my jeans a slipped under the covers. I buried my head into the pillow before punching either side of it beside my head. This was gonna be a hell of a long night.

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

I didn't know how long I'd managed to be a sleep for but when I heard my door open, exposing the light from the hallway. A girl screamed. "I knew it!" I sealed my eyes shut, but she grabbed my wrist with her sharp nails and hauled me out of bed. My wrist stung. I think she almost opened a wound. "What the hell?" I asked, squinting my eyes to get less light in my eyes. "You know exactly what I mean you little slut." She hissed at me. "Lisa, please. We're not sleeping together." A male voice reasoned, it had to be Alex. "Then why the hell is she here, half naked Alex?!" She yelled in response. "She's staying here for a while Lisa! Nothing is going on between us!" He yelled back. "Why the hell is she staying here then?" Alex sighed, shutting his eyes. "A found her a few days ago, on the side of the freeway. She ran away from home and I couldn't just leave her out there to freeze."

Lisa stared at me, taking deep breaths. "Is this true?" She asked me, obviously still furious. I nodded my head. She nodded hers too. "Sorry to wake you." She said with no emotion. "It's alright." I replied quietly. Alex nodded, putting his arm around Lisa's waist and escorting her out of the room. I took some deep breaths after he had shut the door. So that was Lisa. She was really insecure about Alex then. One thing scared me though; Alex said that nothing was going on between us. Was he convincing her or himself? After a few minutes of thinking, someone knocked on door before opening it. Alex's friendly smile welcomed me as he came and sat down on my bed. "Sorry about her. She's... protective." He whispered. "She's scared about you cheating on her you mean?" He forced a small, single laugh. He obviously didn't think it was funny. "Scared is putting it mildly to be honest. Ever since she fucked that dude..."

"Whoa, wait." I interrupted. "She cheated on you?" I almost squeaked. He nodded, his lips curving into a sarcastic smile. "Yeah, she did. And she's scared I'll do the same to get my own back." I nodded picking the blanket over my legs. "That kiss wasn't to get my own back okay?" He reassured. "Then what was it?" I asked. Okay, I was never this confident. "I'm not worth your time." He replied. I didn't look at him and just focused on my suddenly interesting blanket. "I wrote a song about you, y'know?" He said. I stared at him. "Really?" He smiled and nodded. "It's not finished. But I'll let you hear it when it is." I nodded. He kissed my forehead before leaning his on mine. I was desperate to kiss him but he left before I did. Suddenly I was left alone. Confused and unwillingly falling for someone.